I am currently sitting on a train, heading for Omaha, from my Aunt's house in Letts IA. I took a very spontaneous trip. I just got on a train, and told my aunt to pick me up at the station. It was such fun. She has three little boys and lives in the middle of a forest in a beautiful house. It was nice to get away for spring break. On my train voyages and forest excursions, I pondered my thoughts and I am about to shove them all into one post.
I want to be a film maker. I want to adopt one of my sons from Africa. I want to travel. Everywhere. I want to be successful. I want to be busy, but not to busy for my kids. I want to travel with my family, show them the world and make some memories for them. I've got enough gumption, ambition, and passion to do all of these and more. I've been looking a colleges that specialize in film. Chances are, two years from now I'll be getting ready to move to California, because my job will require me to be there. 2/3 of the students at Loyola Marymount in Los Angeles receive internships. Internships lead to relationships and relationships lead to jobs. They have the 19th best film school in the world. I will aim for the stars and apply to the American Film Institute, and I will probably go there, but why not keep my options open? I've got the whole world at my finger tips. People set limits, but truth is there is not a boundary in the world. I am not going to let myself become one of those people who lets their life get away. I am going to live it while I got it. I am going to accumulate debt in student loans, and then I am going to pay them all off with the money I earn in my successful film productions. I am going to spend time with my parents, and make sure they die debt free. I am not going to let anyone stand in my way. I am going to fall in love, and get married and have babies. I am going to go to the super bowl, because why the hell not? I am going to be a guest on the Ellen show, and then we're going to be best friends. Slow dance with John, because I love him. Have a cat named Sherlock and/or McDermott. So basically, this is me telling you all I am going to do this. I am going to live on my terms because this is my life. Mine.
2) Pageants. Does the human race lack the ability to see beauty in everyone? One of my aunts, whom I love very dearly, is infatuated with the way she looks. I look at her and think how beautiful she is, but she is never satisfied. Well, I just typed over 400 words on this subject and lost all of it. Basically, pageants are bad and y'all are beautiful.
3) Distance hurts. My best friend/ cousin moved to Arizona three years ago. I miss her. I've only seen her twice. I want her to come home. We've got so many plans. What ever will I do?
I am going to go sleep now. Goodbye from somewhere in central Iowa.
Nowhere Girl.
