This is harder than I thought.....

Guess what I am doing this very minute? Sitting in my room, alone, in the dark, listening to showtunes, and crying. I am miserable. I've been flipping out all day. During my free, I went and sat in the theatre stared at the set that looked so lonely, and cried. I didn't know what else to do. I feel like my utter sadness was driving people crazy. Maybe it was, but I honestly don't care. I need to vent this, I need to cry, release these half happy toxins from my body. I feel like the theatre is constantly giving me s hug, but today, she had to leave for awhile. She was going on a long vacation. I feel like part of my heart has left. This is killing me, but my day did get a little bit brighter when I saw my beloved Murrbeth. Her face made my day.

NarNar and Fasian tried to comfort me all day. I would not listen. One day this will pass, I will merely smile at the memories. I've gotten so much love the past few months. Nothing but it. I look forward to all the magic I am going to make in the coming years, growing to love even more beautiful people. I will not take advantage of the time I have left, but embrace it and cherish it. It's my job to carry on the traditions and show the love.

I do want to go into an acting career, or maybe so film related profession. Although, I don't know if I'm good enough, God knows I will try. I am going o do what I love. Over and over and over again.
I am going to back to crying now...

When the beating of your heart matches the beating of the drum,

Nowhere Girl