I am Where I am Supposed to Be

So we hit day two of no play practice. I did fairly well. I barely even thought about it all day. Only when we had a mini cast reunion in the hallway. As I looked into the faces of my sisters, I realized I was exactly where I was supposed to be at that point in time. I realized, even though Charlotte's Web is over, I still have every one of those girls. As for the boys? They'll always be there too, even if it's only in my memories. I was happy. It's all rather bitter sweet.

After school EClaire and I went sat in the auditorium. I didn't cry. I laughed and laughed. I could really see the whole show, and all I could think was "We are damn good!" We were soon joined by Murrbeth. We laughed some more. Most of my best memories that are going to be made at DASH are going to happen in that very room. It's already given me so many.

It's the buttermilk.

Nowhere Girl

This is harder than I thought.....

Guess what I am doing this very minute? Sitting in my room, alone, in the dark, listening to showtunes, and crying. I am miserable. I've been flipping out all day. During my free, I went and sat in the theatre stared at the set that looked so lonely, and cried. I didn't know what else to do. I feel like my utter sadness was driving people crazy. Maybe it was, but I honestly don't care. I need to vent this, I need to cry, release these half happy toxins from my body. I feel like the theatre is constantly giving me s hug, but today, she had to leave for awhile. She was going on a long vacation. I feel like part of my heart has left. This is killing me, but my day did get a little bit brighter when I saw my beloved Murrbeth. Her face made my day.

NarNar and Fasian tried to comfort me all day. I would not listen. One day this will pass, I will merely smile at the memories. I've gotten so much love the past few months. Nothing but it. I look forward to all the magic I am going to make in the coming years, growing to love even more beautiful people. I will not take advantage of the time I have left, but embrace it and cherish it. It's my job to carry on the traditions and show the love.

I do want to go into an acting career, or maybe so film related profession. Although, I don't know if I'm good enough, God knows I will try. I am going o do what I love. Over and over and over again.
I am going to back to crying now...

When the beating of your heart matches the beating of the drum,

Nowhere Girl